beautyWhen I was younger all I wanted to be was beautiful. I was obsessed with my physical appearance. My middle school years, high school years, and even some of my college years were flooded with the desperation of achieving beauty.

Despite all of the positive qualities I possessed I never felt good enough. I had no desire to master inner beauty and only sought to conquer the face that stared back at me in the mirror. My skin was never clear enough, my hair never long enough, my smile never bright enough, and my body never thin enough. Why couldn’t God miraculously just give me at least three more inches of height?

I could point out all of my physical flaws in a matter of seconds and often left my friends and family members exhausted with all of my complaints about my looks.

What was I thinking? Was I really that brainwashed by mainstream media that I couldn’t see deeper than the shell of a person?

I now realize how superficial I was. I’ve learned that the most important qualities that a person possesses reside on the inside. The person you are to yourself and to others is what people remember.

I’ve committed myself to mastering the beauty that rests on the inside. My goals as a person are:

1. Always be kind

2. Learn as much as I can

3. Give what I can

4. Always be gracious

5. Spread nothing but love and positivity

When I die, I want to be remembered for the person I was not for the way I looked. I want people to leave my presence feeling good. I want to push people into believing that anything they want to achieve is possible.

I always get so sad when I read or see negative stories in the media. It would be so beautiful if people could focus as much energy on what is hidden on the inside as what is visible on the outside. I wish that we all could make kindness a daily practice.

The experiences I remember most in my life are those when a person showed me kindness. For instance, I was in a Starbucks drive thru one morning and I placed my order, venti iced caramel macchiato upside down with nonfat milk and a plain bagel toasted with cream cheese. When I got to the window, I was told that the car in front of me paid for my order! It was so nice and unexpected especially on a Monday morning. I of course paid for the person in line behind me. It felt so good being a part of that random act of kindness and it’s something I’ll always remember. There was another time my car got a flat tire while I was on the freeway. Luckily, I was able to maneuver my way off of the freeway and onto a gas station lot. A group of construction workers saw my flat and instantly came over to assist me. I could tell more stories, but if I did, this post would never end!

The moments that spread kindness, love, and positivity are the moments I want to be a part of. Those are the moments that are never forgotten and that echo in a person’s heart for a lifetime.

Remember: “Do unto others as you would have them do unto you.”

Love is life.

Hope is life.

Kindness is life.

Love,

Dejanae

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Dejanae Wortham

Dejanae graduated from the University of California, Santa Barbara in 2009 with a Bachelor of Arts degree in psychology. She is a writer, actor, and avid reader. In January 2012, she was featured in Inland Empire Magazine. Dejanae lives in California, has three dogs, and Starbucks is her second home.
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